I’m a college student who has never been in a serious relationship. Gotta love that.
It’s something I’ve struggled with for a few years. Think about it… I live in a world captivated by social media and guess what I see all over my feed. Engagements. Weddings. Lovey dovey, kissy kissy pictures. And here I am with my laptop writing about how I’ve never loved or been loved romantically.
I have good news for you. This is not a post about how desperate I am for a boyfriend, fiancé, or husband. It’s quite the opposite. This is a post about how I’m comfortable and happy being ‘closed for business.’
Let me explain…
I am 19-years-old and I am miles away from having life figured out. I’m in a stage where God is working on me night and day. He is shaping me into the person He wants me to be. He’s helping me hone my gifts and talents and allowing me to use them on a daily basis. He is working on me and with me and preparing me for my purpose.
Not ‘his’ purpose or ‘our’ purpose or ‘the’ purpose. It’s my purpose and that comes with enormous responsibility. God has entrusted me with the gift of writing and creating art that He wants me to share with the world. He’s shown me love through those mediums and He is teaching me to show that same love to others.
It’s a magical when I get to spend so much one-on-one time with my Heavenly Father.
All that to say He’s not done with me yet.
My heart is not ready for a boy or a man. And my future husband might not be ready for me either.
Everything happens in HIS timing.
So, as I sit here writing this I wonder… what’s he going to be like? When will he show up? When will I finally get my chance to love and be loved by someone in a fireworks and butterflies sort of way?
God whispers, “Someday.”
And that’s okay.
Right now I’m being prepared for greatness, but one day I’ll be a lovey dovey, kissy kissy picture on someone else’s newsfeed. I just have to be content in the waiting.